Well....

I am in my constant battle with being fat overweight. I have found I have serious issues with food. I either hate it, and don't eat it, or love it, and want to marry it. I need to lose all the weight I have put back on over the last year, or so. My body is starting to rebel again,to the fat. I go through periods where I eat a little more then normal but not much. I need to get on a regular eating schedule of sorts. One day I won't eat but dinner, or nothing, the next I eat enough for 3 days. Some days I am never hungry and others I am like a starving pig. I have a entire bottle of HCG pills I could take, but I have to do the diet part too for it to work. I am not so big on the diet part. Exercise BLAK.. I like it when I can go to a gym and work out, But at home it ain't happening, and my budget is to tight for a gym right now. So what is this fat girl to do? I need some motivation!!

Any ideas for motivation? I just can't find it.. I know how to lose weight, and I know what one has to do ..it's pretty simple.. eat less, eat well,drink water, and exercise... but I have no desire to do any of that..