My entire life I have been on one extreme or the other of weight, there for awhile after Avery I was "normal". As a teenager I struggled with anorexia, and I tried bulimia, but it's hard to make yourself puke when you have no gag reflex. I was obsessed with weighing 99 pounds, yea crazy when your 5'7. I looked like a sack of bones, I remember my ribs sticked out further then my breasts, now my belly does HA HA. I am obsessed with food, one way or the other, always. I want to overcome this addiction and be healthy and normal. I don't want to starve myself, but I don't want to eat when I am sad and stressed out anymore. Honestly today I have struggled because I miss my husband, and all I want to do is shove a cookie or something in my mouth. And if for any reason, I need to lose weight for my health. So here it is today, weigh in day..... And I weigh the same I have for almost a year now. I have gained almost all the weight I lost over the last few years back. Its frustrating to say the least. Part of me just doesn't care, and part of me would like to wear my clothes again. Yeah I have some health problems so exercising is a catch 20 for me.. Pretty much I am going back to my healthy way of eating. One can be frugal and healthy. I have done it before, and will do it again! I am doing this for ME...not a wedding, not my husband, not my kids, not for whatever.. but for ME!!
I have read countless books The Unhealthy truth, clean eating, paleo books, and more.. What you put in,is so important, and now a days you have to read labels. My son Avery just lost over 70 pounds, and he has inspired me even more to go back to my clean way of life? How about you?
Me now:
Me when I lost over 100 pounds in 2008
p.s.
I still want that damn cookie.
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