Confessions , Ramblings of coupon big momma

My entire life I have been on one extreme or the other of weight, there for awhile after Avery I was "normal". As a teenager I struggled with anorexia, and I tried bulimia, but it's hard to make yourself puke when you have no gag reflex. I was obsessed with weighing 99 pounds, yea crazy when your 5'7. I looked like a sack of bones, I remember my ribs sticked out further then my breasts, now my belly does HA HA.  I am obsessed with food, one way or the other, always. I want to overcome this addiction and be healthy and normal. I don't want to starve myself, but I don't want to eat when I am sad and stressed out anymore. Honestly today I have struggled because I miss my husband, and all I want to do is shove a cookie or something in my mouth. And if for any reason, I need to lose weight for my health. So here it is today, weigh in day..... And I weigh the same I have for almost a year now. I have gained almost all the weight I lost over the last few years back. Its frustrating to say the least. Part of me just doesn't care, and part of me would like to wear my clothes again. Yeah I have some health problems so exercising is a catch 20 for me.. Pretty much I am going back to my healthy way of eating. One can be frugal and healthy. I have done it before, and will do it again! I am doing this for ME...not a wedding, not my husband, not my kids, not for whatever.. but for ME!!

I have read countless books The Unhealthy truth, clean eating, paleo books, and more.. What you put in,is so important, and now a days you have to read labels. My son Avery just lost over 70 pounds, and he has inspired me even more to go back to my clean way  of life? How about you?

Me now:

Me when I lost over 100 pounds in 2008

p.s.
I still want that damn cookie.

Well....

I am in my constant battle with being fat overweight. I have found I have serious issues with food. I either hate it, and don't eat it, or love it, and want to marry it. I need to lose all the weight I have put back on over the last year, or so. My body is starting to rebel again,to the fat. I go through periods where I eat a little more then normal but not much. I need to get on a regular eating schedule of sorts. One day I won't eat but dinner, or nothing, the next I eat enough for 3 days. Some days I am never hungry and others I am like a starving pig. I have a entire bottle of HCG pills I could take, but I have to do the diet part too for it to work. I am not so big on the diet part. Exercise BLAK.. I like it when I can go to a gym and work out, But at home it ain't happening, and my budget is to tight for a gym right now. So what is this fat girl to do? I need some motivation!!

Any ideas for motivation? I just can't find it.. I know how to lose weight, and I know what one has to do ..it's pretty simple.. eat less, eat well,drink water, and exercise... but I have no desire to do any of that..

A New Journey to Me

Today I will start my journey to lose weight. My starting weight today is....

213.2

I have gained 33 pounds in the last 9 months. ( I also lost the same 10 pounds 3 times and gained it back!) How I have no idea? Stress I am sure. I am a stress eater. I stoped working out when we couldn't afford it anymore. I have no excuses now, I have a pool in my backyard LOL!!! I am mad at myself to see the weight I worked so hard to get off, right back where it shouldn't be!!!! I need motivation more then anything, and I just can't find it. I need something to make myself work for!!

I am going to start exercising again today, and watching what I eat.

Ok time for my special K and walk!!

Inches lost...

I am not about to tell the whole world my measurements but I thought I could share inches lost, to match the 58 pounds I have lost now.

I have lost 5 inches in my waist, 6 inches of Fat in my arm, and 8 inches in my hips ( WOW)...



But my countdown ticker, over there >>>>> Has changed. :)

One year ago...

Well this helps with I don't think I have lost enough weight fast enough blues...

On year ago this is what I looked like..

And the scales says....

I have lost FIVE pounds in three days. I think it was a lot of water, because I have been pushing the water, and the exercise this week. I have been eating my cearl or oatmeal for breakfast, a lean cuisine or grilled chicken for lunch, and for dinner I have been eating subway subs.

Yeah me,one more pound, and I will be in the 180's, and that's exciting!!



P.S.

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The Verdict is in

The Bridesmaid dress is here, and I have some more weight to lose for it to fit!! Motivation, Motivation, Motivation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I have actually had a good week, can't wait to see what the scale says.

My first 20 pounds were a lot easier, but that's what they say about weight loss. Its harder the closer you get to your goal. I am going to meet with my trainer again, for some new ideas. I also lose a lot in spells, and then not for a few weeks, then I will lose a lot again. Kinda how this whole year have been for me. When I am done I will have lost 100 pounds.

I really just need to work on my hips/waist area for this dress. So anytime I want to eat crap, I just can pull my dress out and look at it. ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGgggg


So here is a photo of me with my size 22 jeans!! Which was the largest pair I ever owned!! I am working hard on being in some 14's soon! I think the best feeling is being completley out of plus size clothing for the first time in years!!!!!!!!!!!!

Breakfast: Kashai High protein and High fiber Crunchy cearl



lunch: lean cuisine, some fruit chews, water

snack:turkey on wheat,diet lemonade

dinner: turkey on wheat, water

water:11111111
exercise: Lots of cleaning and carrying, and taking steps at work today! I am exhausted!

Food Journal for June 16th

June 16th
Breakfast: none

lunch: salt and pepper tenderloin,cabbage, cornbread, coconut pie, green beans and tomatoes

snack: piece of chocolate chip bread

dinner: I ate 2 chicken nuggets while waiting on my dinner. Then I had steak bites with horseradish, and steamed veggies.

Exercise:
I carried a whole van full of stuff up stairs in the heat to my van, and then unloaded it. I also did some cleaning. I always take the stairs ( 4 flights) to pick up the kiddies.

I wanted to get to the gym it didn't happen.

And the scale says

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One Ninety three. I had gained a few pounds in Vegas, and now I am back to starting point!!!

YIPEE!!

If I can get rid of the sugar cravings again, I will be doing good!

Today has to be a good day!!

I have a very important meeting tonight, so let's hope it goes well!

But today is the day, I weigh myself. I lost another 2 pounds this week, and I have hit.....
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FIFTY POUNDS LOST!!!

I am so happy, I could sing, but I don't think anyone would like that much!!

Weight loss Update: 3/9/08

I reached my first weight loss goal Monday!! I lost 2 pounds that week, and now weigh under 200 pounds!! ( 200 was my first short term goal).

I am on my way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Crock Pot Weight watchers dish

I made this up...but I added it to my weight watchers page, to see how many points it is.

Chicken Dish
POINTS® value | 6
Servings | 6

Main Meals |


Ingredients

4 breast uncooked boneless, skinless chicken breast
18 oz Diced Tomatoes With Basil, Garlic And Oregano
1 1/2 Tbsp olive oil
16 oz canned navy beans
1 tsp table salt
1 Tbsp Italian seasoning


Instructions

put the oil in a slow cooker, then the seasoning, then add the chicken breasts, tomatoes and beans on top. Put some more seasoing and a dash of olive oil ( I try to find the tomatoes with olive oil in them and use those). Cook for 8 hours on low in your crockpot. I also break up the chicken into small pieces as they cook. So it's more like a soupy type meal.

January Weight Loss Update

January:

I have lost 6 pounds this month, not as much as I would like to have. I am one pound from my next short term goal.
I have worked with Steve my trainer a few times. I have seen a difference in the way my body looks.

Here is a picture of my TOO big pants!

Motivation