Why do we as Mother's tend to judge other mother's the most?

My thoughts of the night.. Why do mom's judges other mom's choices? Till you have a lived in someones shoes you do not know the choices they have to make this starts at birth from bottle or breast, immunizations, diapers, to public school or home school. I don't judge other people's parenting choices don't judge mine. We are all sisters in this and should be praying and lifting each other up. What blows my mind is the fights among special needs parents choices over what they do. What works for my family might not work for you. You might not agree with all my choices, but my kids are pretty awesome, so I am glad for every decision I have made for all them. And in case you didn't know I have three wonderful children. Who are overcoming many challenges in our lives.. they have been homeless, one has autism, one has anxiety issues, one has food allergies, two are in occupational therapy, two have had speech, one doesn't even live with me all the time, they all three survived my marriage to an abusive drug addict who happens to be two of theme's father. I have made some bad choices in my 15 years of a mom, I was a young mother. But I don't regret what has made my kids the kids they are, and me the mom I am. I can tell you that my love for them has always has helped me make all decisions. At 18 years old I breastfeed my first born, and was ridiculed by many for doing it.  My daughter has had extreme allergies, eczema, hay fever, etc since birth. I realized ( before it was Cool) that organic baby food improved her skin issues. I drove an hour just to get organic baby food, I don't know why I didn't think to make it myself but organic produce wasn't easy to find then .Till this day she still doesn't do well with pesticides. ( She is 10 now). Just sharing some deep thoughts with you tonight...

Deep Stuff/Part One: Forgiveness

"Our Saviour kneels down and gazes upon the darkest acts of our lives. But rather than recoil in horror, he reaches out in kindness and says, 'I can clean that if you want.' And from the basin of his grace, he scoops a palm full of mercy and washes our sin. "

Max Lucado


Jesus forgives you just like that, all you have to do is ask. It's not so easy with your family, friends and more. My biggest goal for myself this year was to forgive those I need to forgive, so they no longer have that hold on me, and so that I am no longer filled with anger, rage, bitterness. And (insert deep breath here) ask forgiveness from those who I have hurt, lied too, or done wrong. I am no angel, I am not perfect, and I am not so naive to think it's everyone else's fault if I fail at a relationship. I have many people I no longer associate with, some I am even related too, some is for the better and some hurt deep. Rejection hurts when you ask for forgiveness and it's not given. Asking for forgiveness is nothing anyone wants to do. It reminds me of my son, Aidan when he has to say he is sorry for something he has done. He always goes SOreeeeeeeeeeee, and you can tell it's not something he really means at the moment. If it's hard for a child to forgive, we should know it's harder as an adult. Who wants to be wrong?



" Forgiveness doesn't make the other person right, it makes you free."

Stormie Omartian

I know that I can not move forward in my life, and move on into a deeper relationship with my Jesus till I have done this. So I have started working on it. Bridges have been broken, and I am building some great new ones, like Brooklyn Bridge sized ones, but I still hurt for the hurt I have caused others.

The next big step is for me to forgive myself. That one will take some time. It's easier for me to ask for forgiveness and then it is for me to forgive the people I need to forgive. Some people feel I shouldn't even forgive these people, but I need too. I want too. Some are easier then others.

I do not want to be one of these bitter miserable cussing you out for anything people. I listened to many stories from women in my church today, woman who have been through many of the things I have, and how they have moved on and are so close to Jesus now. How God has blessed there life now, and the road there now on. I heard the stories of women in the bible, and the one that meant the most to me, was the woman at the well. I relate to her, I know her pain, and guess what Jesus LOVED her too!

Check out John 4 and read her story.